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He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 5He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 5 by BVBnMCRFan
I convinced myself to lie to myself that things will be alright, and Danny will be mine one day, and we would be able to lay in his bunk with my head on his chest, and we wouldn't have to do anything. That one day he would turn around on stage and kiss me or something.
It's weird to think that we had minor sexual encounters in the beginning of the band. Once we got naked (don't ask, it was just to distract the driver) and he was talking to his girlfriend on the phone and I kept bugging him, so he grabbed me by the hair and kept me down, and my face was near his crotch, so I licked him.
Weird how that didn't mean anything to me then. I don't even remember the day it happened, or what he tasted like, or anything. It was just a joke. But I don't really want anything sexual with Danny. He doesn't really have that much sex appeal to me. Sure there's curiosity (it's not like I never gave anyone a hand job. Again, don't ask, I was drunk), but I wouldn't want that fr
He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 4He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 4 by BVBnMCRFan
I woke up, feeling like a hammer was being pounded against my head. Almost the second my eyes opened up, my stomach groaned and flipped. Puke rose to my throat. I leaned over, ripped the curtain back and let my stomach contents spill to the floor.
"Ew." A female voice said.
I groaned, and averted my eyes to the source. It was mystery girl. She had long black hair and green eyes. She was only wearing underwear and a bra. I suddenly hated her. I gritted my teeth together as more bile threatened to rise.
She gave me a dirty look before flipping her hair over her shoulders and turning, walking back with her clothes in hand.
I stepped over the puddle and moved towards the bathroom. But I didn't get there in time- I was in the kitchen when I threw up, just making it inside the sink.
Sam sighed and rubbed my back.
"You okay there, mate?"
I nodded as I retched again. I lost his touch. I sighed, and stared down at the disgusting, watery puke. I glanced over to find Sa
He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 3He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 3 by BVBnMCRFan
I got off my knees and swiped the bottle back, and made my way to the door, wiping my eyes. I was in the doorway when he stopped me.
"Don't go." He said.
"Why not?" I asked, not turning around.
"If you think it's awkward or I see you differently, I don't."
I blinked, my mind clearing but feeling blocked at the same time. I turned around to face him. He stood there in the center of the room, a sly smile on his lips.
"You're my best friend, mate. I don't care if you're gay or anything."
"But I'm not." I quickly protested.
I'm not gay. I like fucking women too much. Not as much as Danny, but I enjoy it. I like girls. They turn me on. Danny's just… an exception.
"Okay, maybe you're not, I don't know." He shrugged, "But I don't care. I'll help you if you want."
How could he help me? This can't be treated like a sickness. Whatever I have is not a sickness. The alcohol could help, but once I let my mind think again, the feelings would return. I can't stay in contro
He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 1He'll Be the End of Me - Brusnop - 1 by BVBnMCRFan
Ben Bruce's POV
I don't think too much. I just go along to whatever is happening. I don't think what could be, of what could have been Some people do, but I don't. So I was definitely shocked when I found myself wanting to throw up at a normal sight.
I walked down the street, my fingers curled around the top of a vodka bottle, undrinken, the contents swishing as I moved.
"Wild show, eh, mate?" James asked as he walked along beside me, already taking a swig of whiskey.
"Yeah." I grinned, taking the bottle opener from his hand and unscrewed the cork.
I tossed it on the sidewalk and passed the handy tool back to the taller man. The smell of alcohol came up and to the air. I took a large gulp, and sighed.
Tonight's show was only a half an hour befo
Teardrops and RaindropsTears fall downTeardrops and Raindrops by artist-inspired-66
With the sound of the rain
In this life
They both seem the same
The sight of the sky
With those teary raindrops
They're bout to cry
Stormy and cold
With all of the raindrops
Falling at my feet
And when the sky lightens
And comes to be blue
There will be rainbows
And leaves that have dew
But when again the sky darkens
And new lightning strikes
Tears will come with this
So as tears fall down
With the sound of the rain
We know in this life
That they are the same
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